neshynesh

And so you go in your life thinking that you have buried your sinful and sordid past six feet under. You go on thinking that what you've done is only for you and the party involved, to know. The lies, the scandals and the betrayals; All done and the immediate repercussions all faced. Infact, you will sometimes completely forget about some of it. You only think about it when someone mentions that topic, or when a moment or an incident triggers an unexpected moment of déjà vu.

Fate, as i later came to realize, has a wicked sense of humor. What you once passed off as a minor misdemeanor, and long forgotten juvenile behavior, will soon start catching up with your present. When your past starts catching up with your present, which more often than not will be unannounced, you'll be handicapped. Completely caught off guard, you will understand that you are in no position to deny your past the satisfaction it will soon get out of your suffering.

Here's the deal:
1) It shouldn't be a competition
2) It should be easy, simple and uncomplicated.
3) Its either you do or you dont.
4) I'm done.

all i wana do is sit at home, and watch friends.:(

I woke up that morning, only to realize we have reached our destination, sobriety, a moment too soon. You were still here, in my arms ofcourse. Where else could you possibly be, naked, your chastity protected by a sheer veneer. Sunlight filtered by the curtain seeped through and played on your almost perfect contour, casting your curves on the bed.

We have been there a million times before, yet it doesn’t get old. Running my still boyish fingers through your hair, memories of yesterday, flashed in my head like a television monitor having trouble receiving its signal. Bits and pieces, here and there.

It was time to bid farewell. Who were we trying to kid? We knew it. we knew it from the very beginning. We knew better than to get our feelings involved.

That pretty much sums up the past two weeks.

1. Company Dinner, Event & lunch at Shangri-La.
2. Night out with the guys and we went club hopping.
3. Home Club, 7, Clark Quay, Wine Bar.
4. Dinz with the guys, van and a bunch of others.
5. Sister came
6. Chilled out at Coastes and Winebar.
7. Company Wine and Cheese night.
8. Halloween.
9. Met Rach and Paige for lunch.
10. Met the guys today to finalize our travel plans
11. Highlight will definitely be the good food that's coming my way.

Life's good, but booooring.

That night you tainted me, you spoiled me. I didn’t feel like a hooker, a slut or a hoe. That very same night you made it seem like love was still attainable after all. In the haze of emotions, I made a mistake. I believed those words. No, I wasn’t thinking. I couldn’t, even If I wanted to. How could I? You made me feel like I wasn’t committing a mistake, like as if I was in love- that very same feeling that makes you feel like you’ve won a battle, the same feeling that makes you feel like you are on top of the world, the same feeling that makes you believe you can do anything, the same feeling that makes you do the stupidest things, things that you would’ve never thought you would do in a million years, the very same feeling that makes you think back and say- WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING.